Babble

Let me apologize in advance...I am the worst speller in the world and I am currently doing this on my iPhone and I don't think I can do spell ck on this thing ... Anyways I am currently at work w another headache!! Ugh!! I went to a new dr yesterday he he said my headaches may be caused by the tightness in my neck and shoulders so we are trying to work that out. But it seems my blood pressure is a bit up as well - I though it was just yesterday bc I was in the dr office - white coat syndrome - but I just took it again and it's higher then normal.... Great!! This getting older is for the birds man!!!! I think if I can ge my headaches undercontrol I think everything else will fall back into place.

On another note the beast has finally died...well not completely but I have decided to end the relationship...as some of you know I have been on the look out for a new car...however I am a bit credit challenged which is making it a bit difficult...not to mention that I haven't had a car payment in like 5yrs...so anyways last month the u.joint went out - fixed it now I think it's the fuel pump ...that's after Brad and I have done other things to try and fix it -- anyways Ive decided to try and sell it as is for whatever I can get...we have had good times in the last 9yrs but it's time to part ways..and I am a lil sad about it but oh well. Life will go on...

I'm a currently lil more then half way through my book The Shining a classic which I've never read bf and it's right in the good parts when everyone starts going crazy...well it's almost time to go home so that's all Im going to go now...bye

I forgot to add.....

Re my last post...no people I am not preggers!!!! I know this fo sho!!! Why can't a girl get a stomach virus w.o people assuming she's pregnant. Gah everyone has asked me that a thousand and one times this last week....and then when I say "no" they give me the funny eye...anyways...I just wanted to clear the air :0)

ugh....i'm so frustrated rt now bc brad wants me to pop out of bed and clean and I don't want to!!!! Blah wish me luck for today I think I'm going to need it....

Sick and Tired of being Sick and Tired....

This last week was crap to say the least.... I got sick, sick, sick, I actually threw up...and there was no alcohol involved. I had a massive headache 2.5 days in a row w/nausea all week and hot flashes -- no fever though ... my temperature was actually lower then normal...I'm weird I guess. I still feel a lil icky today but I will survive.

So re my last post and my dad....We were able to get him into Grace Living Center...I had to be the one to break the news to him and I had to do it over the phone (since I was sick I could not go around all the old peeps) it sucked and I think it was one of the hardest things that I had to do in a long time...but in the end it was what is best for him...he told my mom that he is glad that we moved him there b.c it will keep his mind active. So that did make us feel better and he has a roommate which is good he needs company. In the end as sad as it may be I believe we did the right thing.

On a better note I'm still liking my new job as unit secretary in the ER. I finally am on my own and so far doing ok. The hardest part for me is that in registration I knew almost everything and now I know nothing...I know it will take time and experience but it is just frustrating....and now they are allowing us to get overtime which excites the heck out of me!!! So instead of going into work at 4pm I can go in at 2pm!! That makes me happy b/c I heart ot...again I know I'm weird.

I'm going to leave you with Charlie Bean Halloween Photos...his nickname has always been squirrel b.c when he was little he looked like one...so I came across this at Target one day and just couldn't resist.

Yes that is an acorn in his hands...hehehe...he was not a happy camper as you can see :O)

Not sure I like where this is going....

So as some of you may already know, and for those of you who don't ... my dad has been in a skilled nursing facility for about 2 months now...he is disabled and has early onset dementia due to a brain injury back in college from a motor vehicle accident...well anyways my mom and I were hesitate on sending him there but the Dr. insisted b/c he had become weak when he had pneumonia. Now my mom told me today that he has plateaued in his rehab and they may be sending home soon...which you would think would be great news ....RIGHT... however my mom and I have come to realize that maybe he needs more care then we can provide. So I couldn't sleep and I started thinking about this stuff....and so I got the laptop and started looking it up....did you know to be accepted into a longterm nursing facility you have have medicaid which is the state insurance - and I was looking up a facility here in Norman that got great ratings and it stated that if medicaid is your insurance to pay for the care that they will use you social security check for your monthly payment. If that is the case then what is going to happen to my mom...she is 66 and in good standing health for the time being but she currently still has to work b/c of all the doctors bills and such. She too relies on my dads SSI check to help pay things off. If she doesn't have that any longer then what??? My family is not a family that has very much to fall back on....gah .... now I think Im even more stressed then I was before b.c my dad needs the help he needs the care... he is at a high risk for falls and depression. He enjoys the skilled nursing home that he is at b/c he socializes he plays bingo, and cards and has little old people to talk to all the time ... he needs that ...gah I hate being a grown up!! It sux!! It sux to have to be making these decisions -- I hate making life decisions they just eat away at me!!

Yours Truly,
Stress Out in Norman

Beautiful Boy

What had happened to my beautiful boy? To our family?What did I do wrong? Those are the wrenching questions that haunted every moment of David Sheff ’s journey through his son Nic’s addiction to drugs and tentative steps toward recovery. Before Nic Sheff became addicted to crystal meth, he was a charming boy, joyous and funny, a varsity athlete and honor student adored by his two younger siblings. After meth, he was a trembling wraith who lied, stole, and lived on the streets.David Sheff traces the first subtle warning signs: the denial, the 3 A.M. phone calls (is it Nic? the police? the hospital?), the rehabs.His preoccupation with Nic became an addiction in itself, and the obsessive worry and stress took a tremendous toll. But as a journalist, he instinctively researched every avenue of treatment that might save his son and refused to give up on Nic.
Beautiful Boy is a fiercely candid memoir that brings immediacy to the emotional rollercoaster of loving a child who seems beyond help.


This was a really good book...it explains all the different emotions that a father or family member may go through when dealing w/ a loved one who has an addiction problem. There's blame and then anger and grief BUT always hope.

I would give this a 4 out of 5 bookmarks...it was hard for me to get into it.

funnies # 2

These cartoons are pretty much things that have crossed my mind and I just happened to find someone who decided to put it into illustrations

Sometimes you feel like too may people at once want to hang out w/ you -- its always all or nothing ...ever notice that



I swore to my old roommate that when I died I was going to haunt him to prove that there is such thing as ghost...if you tell me you dont believe I will come and see you too...i think it would be fun :o)



self explanatory...



I'm queen of procrastination!!


everyday I walk out into public this thought crosses my mind at least once...

El Crap-o

So I am laying in bed and I can't sleep... My sleep sched is all jacked up bc I have been working 4p-1a and then last night someone called in sick so I was nice and went into work from 7p-430a w only 4 hrs of sleep under my belt... Blah so I slept pretty much of today and then around 1am tonight I got sleepy came to bed and now here I am blogging at 3:30 in the morning via my stupid iPhone. It a great phone but keeps me up late at night sometimes ...played Bejeweled for about an hour...I'm addicted...downloaded the old school frogger game which I loved as a child.. Much harder to play on my phone then I thought. Ughh- I'm scared I'm getting sick and god forbid hopefully not with the flu....EVERYONE has been coming into the ER with flu.like symptoms and alot of our staff has it or has had it bc for some reason they still haven't given us our flu shots yet. My throat is just a tad itchy, my ear hurts and I feel like crap...but it could also be my f'd up sleep too...idk... Just took some benadryl so that should kick in pretty soon - I don't want to sleep all day tomorrow bc I gots a crap.load of laundy to do. Well I guess that's all the bitchin I'm goin to do for now :o)